What's Going On With Me cont...

Hello Audience,
     I know it has been a while. I have missed writing the blog. Well, I enjoyed the Blueberry Bash at Bridgeton Elementary. I sold a few books. I met Rep. Norman Sanderson, as well met some new friend and fan. What else I left you with a thought last time could you continue to show love unconditionally if you are constantly mistreated? I know several of you wanted to know what was my thoughts. Here they are, what I am about to say isn't Christian like. Would I show love unconditionally HELL NO!! Let's say E is a real person, she comes out and play time to time. I know God is changing me. Because I had a situation to occur, I didn't break.  That confirmed God is healing me internally. It feels so good, to have that peace. 
     I asked you a question why should a man take a woman out on a date? I received a few responses from friends and ex's. The responses made me think. I know some people ask and told me to read Steve Harvey book. I am beginning to read the book, this book has taught me a few things in another point of view. I will inform you on that at another time. What got me is a few of my male friends had ask me the question back. Then one of my friends who was older and single Father. He is very wise with his words. He put a smile on my face. I'm going to paraphrase "the male interest in the female cause the male to hunger for the female". Another male friend said that to get to know the female. As I continued thinking I went back in my mind. Memories of some crazy experiences came rushing back in a way I was laughing out loud to myself. I think like a male, I went to a male mind for a minute. Not all men are like this but you have to feel them out, ladies.Yea, the game is awesome some are better than others. Sometimes you go for the ride, ladies learn and observe while you are on this ride. Let me clarify this if he is a dealer, pimp, drama, or just not a man, then don't go on this ride to get to know him. Ladies make your list from the movie "Why Did I Get Married?" You know what you can and can't handle. Men you learn from the women as well. Let me explain, if the woman you dating is a fancy hamburger with sweet potato fries with a jar of kool-aid. Males,if you know how to cook; learn what ingredients that make this hamburger so damn good. Is it the brown eggs, the oregano, expensive beef, etc. The main question to ask is this good for you? Can she give me what I need as well give her what she need? Asking them questions on this ride helps you to make that decision to continue or stop at that depot. To the single men and women until we receive what we need enjoy. Most of all love yourself!!!!

What Caused This Experience?

Do you remember when you was a child your Mom or Dad would come by and hit you for no reason. You like what is that for? I had an experience to hit me like what for? I can't understand how and why? I want to know what can I do to change it or what caused this. It was embarrassing and scary at the same time. I know I am a strong confident person. Why? I told you all that I was on this new journey to see some things for myself. I wonder if some way or how I lost myself in someway that I allowed it to happen. I mean, for example have you had someone who build you up and then tear you down. Then you realize that they don't want you to rise above them. I personally feel like that what has happened. I am not sure if that is it. I wish I had the answer but what ever the answer is I want to face it head on. I have duty to share my gift and talents to help others. I have to show people who I am. I can't do that if this experience hits me again. What do I have to do to over come this? That's the question.