Monday, July 22, 2013

Checking In

Well, I know I haven't done anything since 2012. Happy Belated New Year! I feel bad. Life has me in several different directions. Hopefully, I will land somewhere soon. I am still writing.I haven't published anything since 2011. I had the opportunity to write an essay for an Anthology book in 2012. "20 on 3:Faith, Hope and Charity" this book was amazing. I gained inspiration during a hard economy. People has faced a lot from 2007 until the present moment. Purchase a copy of this great book, it is worth it! Next, I am working on a project called a "A Gift of Words". I am working to get that started. It is for children ages 3-12. Next, I am almost done with school. I am very happy about that. I will be back to post "A Gift of Words". 

Friday, November 23, 2012

Why Don't It Feel Like Thanksgiving?

I hope everyone had a wonderful Thanksgiving. What bother me is how it didn't feel like Thanksgiving. We all work day in day out to provide for our families or just survival. We work so hard to survive until holidays don't feel like it. It is just another day off from work. Let me explain, do you remember when you was younger how businesses would be closed on Thanksgiving. The atmosphere felt warm with excitement. That is not the case. There were restaurants, stores, etc open twenty-four hours on Thanksgiving. Has money taken over family values and  the cares of others ? I feel in some ways it has. It is our responsibility as a people to don't forget what this country has been built upon. "In God we trust" that quote is on every piece of US currency. To those who done good deeds yesterday. I thank you for taking your time to show and share love to those who are less fortunate. As I was thinking about theses restaurants opening twenty-four hours. IHOP was open twenty-four hours, why didn't they open their doors to free meals to homeless, wounded vets, or military families? This would show the reason for the season,instead of just making a profit. My suggestion is when it don't feel like a holiday, do something to make someone else feel good.Just don't do it on a holiday do it year round. Let's get ready for Christmas!

Sunday, October 21, 2012

What Been Going On

    I have missed my audience.  I know you are wondering what I've been doing? I have been mostly busy being a Mother first to my beautiful little girl. She is in Kindergarten. Education is very important. Next, I had a good time at the MUMFEST.  Also, I am working on several new poems for three or four poetry contest. I working on my next interview. Please keep a look out on Raychelle's blog. Time is getting closer for the results for the Writer's Digest Self Publishing Awards. I am very excited. I hope "Sweet Dreams" will win or place. "25 Days of Roses" received Honorable Mentioned last year. That's huge for me and my publisher. 

   OH!! Early Voting started Thursday, October 18th. Everyone go vote!! I heard on the local news that we had a great turn out for the first day of early voting. I want that to happen again. Our President has done his job the best of his ability. Ladies and Gentlemen lets really vote when it is time to re-elect the senators and representatives. We need men and women who are going to support our President. You remember the when President Clinton was in the seat. The US was on their feet. We had a surplus beyond measure. I want to see that again. I want to say this while it is on my mind. I am a single parent. Mitt you just labeling close to over half of the families in US as a crime zone. Mitt what's next? I can hear Keri Washington at the Democratic Convention "We are the people". I say "we are the people" who has to make this happen. Go vote!

Saturday, August 11, 2012

What You Wanted, Not How You Wanted

"I never been the person who likes to get in trouble or cause confusion. You know what the Bible says paraphrase that "God is love and not of confusion". Well, I stuck my foot in something so deep without me seeing it coming. It began one day I was driving home and my college classmate, BFF called.

"Hey gurly. What's up?" Leah responded.

"Nothing much girl. Just driving home from a meeting." with a calm voice of worry.

"De' Asja, I know you didn't have any meeting today. I saw you with Aspen. You were at the cafe by the art gallery on Fifth Ave.What's going on? I was going to see if you was going to tell me."

"Sorry, girl. I was going to tell you when I got my thoughts together. You know I don't like trouble or confusion. Right now at this moment I am pass knee deep in." replied De

"I have to go Barry is on the other line."

"Bye, De" replied Leah

"Yes, honey"

"Baby, where is my Stacy Adams?" he asked

" Look in the closet on the floor near the container with Winter on it. Do you see them? If not I am on my way home."

"Thanks, I found them. Don't worry about cooking tonight I have a meeting with the Dr. Rawlins. That project I have been working on has been approved."

"Great! Why didn't you tell me?"

" I wanted it to be a surprise. After this is done, I promise I will slow down. We are going to work having a baby again."

"You have said that so many times, Barry. I will see. Only if he knew? What am I going to do? Should I tell him or wait? I'm home, bye."
Driving my car into the garage I see everything he said he was going to do and hasn't. The crack in the driveway, the siding on the house that was partially repaired from Hurricane Ophelia, and my flat tire on my Honda Accord. This tire has been flat for two weeks. Just sad, getting out of the car, the smell is making me nausea. I hurried to unlock the door passed Barry to get to the half bath near the guest room. 

"De' are you ok? Well, I see that you are vomiting like you have that stomach bug going around. I'm going to  reschedule my meeting to stay home."

"No, honey. You worked hard to get this. Call Leah see if she can come over? This give me a chance to see if she can help me."

"Leah, is on her way. I am going to stay until Leah gets here. You look flushed." 
He carried me to the master. He had made the bed so neatly that I wanted to take a picture. This is what I loved about him. Why he wasn't that way with other things around the house." He undressed me gave me a quick wash up, pull the covers back on the bed, gently placed me in the bed.
"You looking so beautiful. Take me back when we first met at the art expo in college. I knew I was going to make you my wife." his eyes smile.

"Knock, Knock! Hey, where is the sick gurly?"

"We are in here Leah." replied Barry.

"Hey, sweetie. You look good and rough?"

"Barry, you go head. That money is calling you. I got your girl."

"Thanks, Leah. I have given her a bath. She needs to eat."

He gentle kissed me on my forehead. Walking away as if it killed him to take each step to walk out of that room. Leah waited long enough to hear Barry car back out of the driveway and down the street. 

"What is really wrong with you?" asked firmly by Leah

"I'm pregnant."


Tuesday, August 7, 2012

A Deeper Meaning

A couple of weeks ago I watched the movie "The Reader". That movie has a deep meaning, which took you to a raw place within yourself that some people wouldn't be able to explain. Continuing to think about this movie, took me to a memory. There are memories or events in life that causes others to be shut off from the world and family. Until something happens and you learn that you have to open up to release what you are hiding.The character who played the young gentlemen fell in love with this woman. She was much older and have to be in control. She had to stay in control to hide her truth. Her truth was she couldn't read. When you watch the movie there are several scenes where they made love. I looked at it from the point of view that she wasn't making love to the young boy. She was making love to what he had. What he had that she didn't was education, innocence, and most of all he could read. 

Have you ever seen someone who might have a car that you have dreamed of all your life. I know mine is a Ford Mustang. You look over to see a fine man driving the car that would make you sin just with eye contact. The intelligent young man had attracted her to him. In return she taught him how to make love to a woman but not how to love. That love is giving yourself to those you love. Which caused this young man marriage to crumble. He didn't have the best relationship with his daughter. I will let you see the end of the movie to see what happens. I will say this once you release a secret NO ONE can beat you over the head with it. Don't let your past beat you.You leave it behind and take the wisdom, knowledge and understanding in your heart.

Tuesday, July 17, 2012

What's Going On With Me cont...

Hello Audience,
     I know it has been a while. I have missed writing the blog. Well, I enjoyed the Blueberry Bash at Bridgeton Elementary. I sold a few books. I met Rep. Norman Sanderson, as well met some new friend and fan. What else I left you with a thought last time could you continue to show love unconditionally if you are constantly mistreated? I know several of you wanted to know what was my thoughts. Here they are, what I am about to say isn't Christian like. Would I show love unconditionally HELL NO!! Let's say E is a real person, she comes out and play time to time. I know God is changing me. Because I had a situation to occur, I didn't break.  That confirmed God is healing me internally. It feels so good, to have that peace. 
     I asked you a question why should a man take a woman out on a date? I received a few responses from friends and ex's. The responses made me think. I know some people ask and told me to read Steve Harvey book. I am beginning to read the book, this book has taught me a few things in another point of view. I will inform you on that at another time. What got me is a few of my male friends had ask me the question back. Then one of my friends who was older and single Father. He is very wise with his words. He put a smile on my face. I'm going to paraphrase "the male interest in the female cause the male to hunger for the female". Another male friend said that to get to know the female. As I continued thinking I went back in my mind. Memories of some crazy experiences came rushing back in a way I was laughing out loud to myself. I think like a male, I went to a male mind for a minute. Not all men are like this but you have to feel them out, ladies.Yea, the game is awesome some are better than others. Sometimes you go for the ride, ladies learn and observe while you are on this ride. Let me clarify this if he is a dealer, pimp, drama, or just not a man, then don't go on this ride to get to know him. Ladies make your list from the movie "Why Did I Get Married?" You know what you can and can't handle. Men you learn from the women as well. Let me explain, if the woman you dating is a fancy hamburger with sweet potato fries with a jar of kool-aid. Males,if you know how to cook; learn what ingredients that make this hamburger so damn good. Is it the brown eggs, the oregano, expensive beef, etc. The main question to ask is this good for you? Can she give me what I need as well give her what she need? Asking them questions on this ride helps you to make that decision to continue or stop at that depot. To the single men and women until we receive what we need enjoy. Most of all love yourself!!!!

Friday, July 13, 2012

What Caused This Experience?

Do you remember when you was a child your Mom or Dad would come by and hit you for no reason. You like what is that for? I had an experience to hit me like what for? I can't understand how and why? I want to know what can I do to change it or what caused this. It was embarrassing and scary at the same time. I know I am a strong confident person. Why? I told you all that I was on this new journey to see some things for myself. I wonder if some way or how I lost myself in someway that I allowed it to happen. I mean, for example have you had someone who build you up and then tear you down. Then you realize that they don't want you to rise above them. I personally feel like that what has happened. I am not sure if that is it. I wish I had the answer but what ever the answer is I want to face it head on. I have duty to share my gift and talents to help others. I have to show people who I am. I can't do that if this experience hits me again. What do I have to do to over come this? That's the question.