Internally, Can't Get It Back

   (Due to I have a busy day Thursday, you are receiving the post early)    

      To the women who has been abused sexually, mentally, emotionally, verbally and physically. It's amazing how you loose apart of yourself. Talking with one of my good friends reminds me that we won't NEVER get it back. Some people might see us as mental ill but we not. 
   I think of the person I used to be. You look at children, the innocents is so beautiful.  Tears fills your eyes because you wish you could  have it just for a second. You know that isn't possible. You learn to grab hold to what you can. Especially, the special moments that can't be recorded only in your heart. Facing this reality is truth. No one deals in truth anymore. Where someone else may bite their tongue, you would speak the truth. It's like you don't care. After you have been torn into internally no one can't relate to this pain. Yes, you are put back together, there are patches everywhere. You love again but you don't have the full passion as once before. Because a flashback will transport you but it is process. A process that will take you back and forth. If the man can't relate to where this woman has been you don't know what button might be the trigger. 
  To boys who thinks they are men you aren't ready. Don't play the games. We know the games. The abuser taught us so well that we can smell you before you hit the step. So, keep it moving,please. Men who are ready to take the challenge you better be for real. If you make a mess this time might send her over the edge.